Something Over The Bridge

Man 0: There is something over the bridge! [pointing at the strange thing]
Man 1: I don't know what is that? A UFO? [Drinking his bottle of Sprite]
Man 0: Not sure, not sure. [Goes back fishing and is busy catching fish like tilapia]
Man 1 [goes up to go to the bridge]: I'm checking it. [Studies the bridge and in the clouds, noticing a strange shape, then reports it to the police.]

The fellow goes out to find them and goes to a nearby police station, reporting to one of them.
Man 1: Pardon me, I am not making this up. I saw something over the bridge and I don't know what it is. It's circular. You must come and take a lot.
Policewoman: A dead body?
Man 1: I dunno, you come take a lot.
The two come together and catch this strange sighting, the woman gets her taser gun and a pistol in case of self defence. Then a group of journalists and newsreporters catch this strange sighting. They film it and interview the people there.

Reporter 1: How come you came here to see this, Ma'am Constantino?
Policewoman: Some man told me that there is this weird-looking appearance in the sky. It might be a trick by criminals [leads the reporter to tracking down the appearance and where it comes from.] The barangay people would tell me that it comes from this forest, that image. [Goes to the barangay]

The policewoman encounters an ordinary housewife and politely introduces herself.
Policewoman: Hello, I am Nola Constantino. I am here to find you where did this come from. In the meantime, I'll be using my medical kit.
Housewife: I don't know but it would appear every now and then. First it was in the forest then it was in the lake and in the bridge and somewhere over the city. What is that? [Pointing at her medical kit.]
Policewoman: I am just getting some samples wherein I'll examine it. [Puts dirt in plastic bags] I need to find out whether if that strange object impacted this place. The materials I gathered look burnt and are burnt.
Housewife: I think it caused a fire but I put it out with two bottles of water from my refridgerator.
Policewoman [sniffs the sample]: Smells bad. Smells like traces of ash. [Calls over a dog] Come here lassie. Sniff this soil will you please.
The hound is sniffing the soil for traces of alien material. And that verified her suspicions.

The journalists continue to publish highly sensationalised tales of strange object sightings in this part of Marikina. Then it becomes big news once it gets there to the Net. In the meanwhile, the policewoman has uncovered something strange under a microscope while she is still testing the samples. Traces of aluminum and glass shards. Then comes even more rust and charcoal. What was it?

The housewife retreats and is busy raising mangoes and tomatoes for the market today. She is also busy planting avocado trees in her backyard. Then her daughter comes here

Thoughts on DCNU in the future

 If they read this proposal:
1. It might be rejected since it's too edgy or if they accept it, well they need to be careful with the idea of an Angry Barry trying to control himself with the help of Black Canary of the Birds of Prey before he succumbs to Lady Shiva, another martial artist. If that were to happen, then it'll shake things up by having Barry stay in Birds of Prey for good, then have Bart become part of the title and rename it "Kid Flash".
2. If that happens, it might have a domino effect on the Flash series. Since Wally West, the third Flash, really is going to appear on Manapul's run on the story would either take up the Red kite moniker after the Flash, Barry, is loosening his ties to Lady Shiva due to brainwashing him as a formidable fighter or be forgotten forever. Then they'll bring in a new team to save the title from going crap by having Bart in it.
3. If this happens, what if DC begins capitalising on the newfound teacher and student bond between Flash and Black Canary and publish a miniseries called "Black Canary and Flash: Partners in Crime" or something like that? When this happens, Barry Allen fans might as well learn to adjust reading the further adventures of Barry Allen in Birds of Prey and this hypothetical miniseries.
4. Then DC figures out how to return Barry to the FLash series though it may or may not be as good or bad as the proposed storyline of Flash: Quick to Anger. A good writer would have him become a formidable martial artist in his own right after being in the shadow of Black Canary in Birds of Prey for so long. A bad writer would turn him into a near carbon copy of Marvel's Matt Murdoch (blind bad boy of superhero comic books). And we might not be sure that if the proposal "Flash: Quick to Anger" happens, then we either have to see Barry as a martial artist or in the hands of bad writers, become an able-sighted Matt Murdoch without even realising that Barry's powers and emotional condition requires a different treatment from Matt Murdoch coming to terms with his disability and what else is left of him.

Proposals for DCNU if that is going to suck

 DC Suggestions if your titles are going to suck

Flash: Quick to Anger

A frightening storyline where Barry Allen comes to a point of losing control over himself and his powers. As a result he

suffers from an emotional breakdown: losing his temper, crying a lot, getting drunk, gambling and all. He gets taken care of

by his therapists and other DC superheroes such as Black Canary and newcomer Peter Anderson. He better has to deal with his

anger or else it'll get the better of him.
STORIES: "Angry Young Man" (where Barry Allen laspes into a mental breakdown and strikes his colleagues and friends), "Out of

Control" (Barry is still picking on fights with any hero he meets, drinks too much, gambles too much and throws fits even

when Clark Kent and Peter Anderson try to take him to the therapist, plus Barry develops delusions of a "Black Racer"), "Down

In It" (Barry is trying to be as good and even-tempered as he gets to be but can't help himself write down thoughts about

harming Clark Kent and friends, he has thoughts of killing the nicest guy in DCNU, Peter Anderson and sleepwalks), "Self

Destruct" (Barry is in anger management class, figuring out how to control himself before it gets the better of him) "Thorn

Among the Roses" (Barry has to be demoted from Justice League, which sends him to a flying rage and wants revenge on his

colleagues for rejecting him, while trying to make amends with his trainers Black Canary and Batman over at Birds of Prey),

"You'll Be Under My Wings" (Dinah takes him to a doctor and several others to help him curb his fiery temper and channel it

in more useful means), "Don't Go Back" (Barry is having therapy sessions and is getting trained by Black Canary and

Nightrunner to make use of his powers and make sure, he'll not strike anyone out), "Red Kite, Black Canary" (Dinah finds

herself wondering where did Barry go for training though she's out to find out why and when did this happen) "When the Smoke

is Going Down" (Dinah confronts Barry, in turn Barry confronts his demons and enemies), "Our Darkness" (Barry has to overcome

his anger and learn how to be a hero again) and "Homecoming" (Barry is still recovering from the affects of brainwashing by

Lady Shiva and begins his second week of training with Black Canary, she is also busy teaching Bart Allen/Kid Flash).
Character Introductions: Peter Anderson (full name Peter Saether Anderson because his maternal relatives are Norwegian and

his paternal relatives trace their roots from Scotland's mountains and Norse island, Shetland)
A Scot-Norwegian American as he puts it from Midvale, Minnesota and a former navy technician. He is deliberately based on

both Murphy Anderson (former DC inker, like Murphy, Peter is kindhearted, reserved and polite) and Peter Murphy (singer of

the punk band Bauhaus, has light brown hair, thin face, high cheekbones and blue eyes). He is having his first job as a

journalist for the Daily Planet after being turned down for Central City Papers and being self-employed as a pig farmer. His

sisters are Eileen Anderson Potter (mother of the little lass, Angela Potter, his youngest sister and works as a policewoman)

and JoAnn Anderson (his younger sister, works as a pig farmer and is a fat butch lesbian). His children are Sophie and Earl

Anderson, his wife is Helen Haetta Anderson, a Sami American and literature professor.
Red Kite *(brainwashed Barry Allen with red hair dye)
Named for a bird of prey, he posesses the same superspeed power as regular Barry allen does but a good deal deadlier given

his expertise of karate, kung fu and use of weapons such as sais. A product of Lady Shiva and Atrocious's training. Once the

Red Kite identity is cancelled, he reverts to the blonde-haired, blue-eyed Barry Allen but a changed man he was. He's not the

same man we met at the time of Flashpoint but has gained skills in martial arts.
Flash (Barry Allen, not the same one as we met in Manapul's run but still recognisably himself)
He's learning how to confront the loss of his old job as a forensic scientist and his anger is still there but subsiding

under the training of Black Canary and therapy sessions back in Central City. He is considering bounty hunting and doing

detective work since he thinks that's the only way for him to still get back to himself after losing his job working as a

scientist. He is learning parkour from Nightrunner, karate, judo, qi gong and kung fu from Black Canary and muay thai from

Black Canary (Dinah Laurel Lance)
A wanted fugitive, though she insists on being part of the good guys. She is a raven-haired florist and gardener by day,

blond-wigged fighter by night. Aside from Peter Anderson, Dinah shows the most enthusiasm and empathy for Barry's abject

condition. She reminds me of my lola Bellie in that she likes reading books about flowers and gardening and gardens herself.

She is intended to resemble Siouxsie Sioux since both women wear fishnet and all. She's a mentor to both Barry and Bart.
Kid Flash (Bart Allen)
A wide-eyed innocent who is busy training under Dinah. The reason is that he doesn't want to end up insane and mad like Barry

so he has to train with more experienced people like Dinah so that he'll be using his powers for good. He is busy learning

judo, capoeira, ballet and parkour throughout the stories here.

Seriously Are There Any LGBT Fans of Anime?

1. Name an anime or manga, excluding those that are solely shoujo-ai or shounen-ai, that actually has a large or at least notable LGBT following?
2. Name an anime or manga that isn't bara, yaoi or shounen-ai with a specifically gay and bisexual male following?
3. Name an anime or manga that isn't strickly shoujo-ai or yuri with a specifically lesbian and bisexual female following?
4. Do some anime that appear to have a slash following like Saiyuki or GetBackers have really any gay and bisexual male participants in these fandoms?
5. Are there really any LGBT fans of anime and manga? Express your thoughts about it and your attraction to it.
6. Are LGBT fans present at all in other anime fandoms?
7. Can anyone explain to me why there really aren't any bisexual and gay male fans of particular anime such as Yami no Matsuei and Saiyuki?

Again from my Computer

Inexistent Gay Male Fans of Saiyuki

I think this criticism would make better sense if I were a bi boy but then again I am horrified and curious about the absolute lack of gay male fans in other fandoms with large numbers of straight female fans.

1. My cousin told me that the real reason why Saiyuki doesn't even attract gay males is that they can't identify with the male characters or even any of the characters is that due to a social stigma (and the way they are socialised with their families in my case), that they don't want to actually come out watching it. So that leaves much of the slashing to the much less stigmatised straight women to do it. This is again another reason why LGBT individuals are pretty and modestly well-represented in furry and superhero fandom. Maybe because of the stigma, that's why I tend to actually consistently gravitate towards superheroes and that some directly address the stigma of being different (think about X-Men and its more obscure, even weirder counterpart, DC's Doom Patrol, which debuted a few months before the former came about). Male and female fans is one thing, but homosexual male fans is another. I doubt that even dykes would really like to watch that, even with the shapely broads (and I went after the broads y'know).
2. This is an idea that fascinated me whether if universal appeal has a given limit when it comes to given demographics. After all demographics are affected by number, cultural upbringing, socioeconomic upbringing and geography. The same is true for fandom whether if gay male fans are actually present in some anime fandoms. I've been to gay geek websites such as Gaymer and Pink Kryptonite (which verifies the study of superhero comics having queer fans) but what made wonder is any particular media that appeals strongly to a straight and bisexual female demographic would either be true or not true for their corresponding gay male counterparts. As said before, Saiyuki and its ilk (Gundam Wing, Weiss Kreuz) may have strong slash followings but inexistent or temporary gay male fans. There is an article about how appealing slash between male manga characters are to women but little or even zero data whether if gay and bisexual men are participants in like fandoms. As with DC and Marvel superheroes, Sailor Moon has an LGBT following because it promotes that much diversity in its representation of strong women characters. Much like why do female pop musicians have gay male fans is that sense of emotional strength and vulnerability combined together. But where are the gay male fans in Weiss Kreuz or any other anime that isn't Sailor Moon, Revolutionary Girl Utena or anything other than bara (gay male erotica for gay men only)?
As with the stigma of being a gay male could explain why you've got a good enough number of gay males who have problems with yaoi in the like manner bisexual and lesbian women don't find the programme L Word appealing enough because both are kind of timid to acknowledge that there is a lot of diversity to sexual expression among gays and lesbians as well as experiences. You know, disabled lesbians, senile lesbians, geeky lesbians, deformed queers and geeky gays. Queers the public barely cares about unless if that's a nobody's blog or documentary (Paris is Burning had an albino black gay so). So if that is true, if there ever were any gay fans of Gundam and Saiyuki, they would have the most difficulty appreciating them.
3. Now it's time for a question, which is gayer somebody who works as the resident analyst but is secretly a martial artist with superpowers in tights or somebody who hangs with other blokes (i.e. Weiss Kreuz) who do nothing better but beat up other blokes and whine about it the next day? Superheroes have gay followings so that's self-explanatory but the problem with looking for whether if there are gay male fans of anime online is when you type it, especially from my experience it has more to do with homoerotic undertones than say a good enough sign that there are gay male fans. Understanding demographics is of great importance to sociologists, anthropologists, feminists, business people, doctors, historians, genealogists and those that curious about it determines which group would like this or like that or whatever that is. In this case, it's about LGBT, deformed and disabled fans, who are unique in that they are raised within a dominant culture and grow up wanting to find like kin. In this case, the stigmatisation of male homosexuality coupled with perceived effeminacy could explain why it is sexy to straight women but a big pain in the arse for gay men. Hence that's why there are so few gay and bisexual male fans of Weiss Kreuz but there has yet to be any verified data about it.
4. Which goes back to number two, why LGBT people would sometimes have mixed attitudes towards LGBT programming. From a thread of comments found on AfterEllen with regards to the depiction of African American lesbians is that the portrayal is a bit missing. I do believe that they are missing that what if coming out interferes and upsets a more conservative family. This is something that is done but not very often as are depictions of senile and disabled queers. The L Word had a good job of having lesbian characters though I never watched it but I wonder why some LGBT programmes often forget about poor and disabled LGBT characters, which would better show more diversity in its depiction of queer characters. Or God forbid senile ones. There are gay male fans of Weiss Kreuz and Saiyuki but very few in number and not very vocal about it due to a large number of straight female fans and stigmatisation. Call me too politically correct but then it does make you wonder if LGBT fans don't have to always be attracted to anything LGBT which is true but whats matters to me is whether if there is any data about it since the available data about it is scant. Those with truly universal appeal like superheroes and Tintin are pretty much exempt and/or compared to others if there are any LGBT fans. To conclude this, while this is not to everybody's taste as stated before but it's good enough to know why some LGBT fans have difficulty liking something like so called lesbian porn, yaoi and the like. In other words, being LGBT is more than being LGBT and in this case, fandom demographics matter when determining individuals involved in it.

Again Tangent Thoughts from My Computer

Excerpts from my personal document, "Rants about being LGBT especially in fandom and misconceptions about it"

5. Again, that's why LGBT fans in some fandoms like Saiyuki are at best ephemeral since they don't maintain interest that long and when it does comeback, it's a bit of anger and disappointment at the lack of strong women, much less heroines and the lack of LGBT fans (in my case). If I was a bisexual male, I'd hate Saiyuki even more because all that they do is beat other youkai without understanding them that much other than the more well-known characters. Why are the youkai there? Though that's been explained in the manga and anime, again it's overshadowed by necessary straight male violence and fangirl glomping. Why do they do this? It's been explained but from a queer perspective, it's more like an explanation for straights to spit at queers in spite of the moral ambiguity. If there ever was a corresponding LGBT audience, they'd focus more on the youkai and why are they there in the first place. They'd even make the main youkai more heroic or worthy of queer empathy.  Or focus on Hakkai, Goku and Gojyo (that is by not emphasising whatever they are notorious for like Gojyo hits on broads, Goku's a nasty, immature lad but rather on why are they that different matters to the queer writer than who is hitting who or anything that random). Actually, they could easily be coded as queer without really being queer if it weren't for fangirl glomping (or straight fangirl glomping to be specific), if only their bad traits weren't so badly emphasised and if there ever was any time for introspection. If there are any longterm queer fans of Saiyuki, the youkais would stand in for queers. That's probably why the LGBT audience is well-represented in other fandoms. They are better known actually in superhero comics and there has much speculation on the queer appeal of superheroes and the apparently queer experiences superheroes have. Batman for example is notoriously very close to his Robins while female characters in Batman were historically either enemies or mere acquiantances, so it's easily conceivable to think of Batwoman, Batgirl and Vicky Vale as fag hags. It's only recent that they play a much bigger role. Queer used to be different in a generic, random sense so it makes sense.

6. On the subject of LGBT fans and superheroes, LGBT superheroes aren't that uncommon so are LGBT writers to a degree. Most superheroes may be overwhelmingly straight but them being coded as queer is understandable. Black Canary is best known as a screaming blonde women in black clothing but her "civilian" persona is that of a dark-haired florist (at least in older comics since she dyed her hair blonde). In earlier comics, she lacked the ability to scream and was (and still is) a competent fighter. It's only recent that she had the ability to generate sonic screams so that's analogous to her coming out as a lesbian. In one page in one comic book, her best friend was telling her how to scream since he thinks that's relieving. What he didn't know (and got knocked down by it) was that Dinah (still a woman with long black hair) is a metahuman with a sonic scream. So that's pretty shocking and embarassing when you think of it this way like say I didn't know I was gay until that happened. Then she used it as an advantage in battle, much like many queers finally coming in terms with their sexualities. That's different from say the youkai in Saiyuki. One would attribute it to differing philosophies. But in the context of queer sexuality, it makes sense why would a superhero like Black Canary be queer because she is like that at times. Secretive when not in battle is like that many LGBT fans having to save face in front of their parents. There may be some Black Canary slash with other women characters but to a queer female like myself, she is kin. She is beautiful by using her difference as an advantage having to reconcile with it. Or that to queers, it's pretty relatable and sexy for superheroes to have private lives. That Black Canary really is Dinah Lance, somebody's florist.
    Hakkai could be easily be conceived as queer since he appears to be very normal but not quite though as I said before, Saiyuki doesn't like LGBT fans and are notoriously short on gay male fans. Gay male fans would be horrified shit when Sanzo and his youkai friends simply beat up other youkai, in spite of all the explanations about them being there. Why does Hakkai have to wear something like that is explained though there's little psychological insight of him being so different thinking "God, I can't believe that I'm a demon". Or having Hakkai wish to empathise with other youkai, feeling bad for beating them up while saving face in front of Sanzo, the absolutely celibate straight man. Or that there is little emphasis on the social lives of the youkai, which would make them more worthy of queer empathy and respect. If a gay male were to write about Hakkai, it's more on how painful it is to be that different, having to be under the command of straight people and that he came out as a youkai. The same could be said for Goyjo and Goku, where if they were rewritten by a gay male writer, they'd be living the gay male experience of being unaware of how different they are and having difficulties reconciling with that fact. One would say that in Japan, queer expression is situational since in Japanese culture it's normal for one to save face.  But gay males still suffer from discrimination and stereotyping them as effeminate and flamboyant.
As stated before, whenever a gay male character is written he is flamboyant and that's it while the straight or even asexual male characters tend to socialise with one another. Much like the case of romantic friendship (close but nonsexual bonds) in men and male fraternities tends to be more historically tolerated than in the case of actual homosexuality. It's still like that today wherein in the media God forbid a bisexual macho male (bisexual macho female would be a variant of the dreaded butch lesbian mind you) yet it's still ripe with fraternities, which in turn feeds slash fiction. A macho, bisexual hermaphrodite would be the most unthinkable thing to be shown or even written about yet it's more helpful in helping one think of queer sexuality and hermaphroditism beyond stereotypes.
7. Male homosociality specifically refers to friendships between men and the subculture of straight men. Homosociality is there as a form of hierarchy and approval, some aggression and maybe find ways of getting horny. In one paper about mateship in Australia among men that it developed in harsh conditions, which is exactly the same reason why homosexuality in men is looked down upon. In one anecdote or study, the men are obviously in a fraternity who go watch PRON or something like that. In another by Kiesling, fraternities and sororities do come together, but for sex. Such homosocial societies between straight men and women as well as their queer counterparts sharpen the differences. It's a lot like raising children where lasses are not told to be with the lads when menstruating or that some elder advises the lass not to mention sex or with a lad (this happens to me often) that the lad would rape her. Or an anecdote of lads who grew up disliking sissies are obviously the same blokes who socialise together to harass and insult weaker men and queer men in particular. I will use fraternity or gang when referring to the social groups involving straight men and lads because it makes sense with regards to their interests as stated above. I meant that to be different from slash pairings in fandom as a way to carefully differentiate the subculture of straight men from the subculture of queer men.

A Question Just to Verify My Offencive Theory

Question: Since I came out as bi, years and months after I am wondering whether if LGBT fans actually ever exist in anime fandom. They do exist in anime fandom, especially in the case of Sailor Moon (which at least has a queer female following to a degree due to an emphasis on strong women and their lives and relationships with each other). Saiyuki which may have a lot of straight women fans but in the subject of gay male fans, either the evidence for it is scant and/or it appealed to them but only for a short while (like me). The latter should have a larger gay male fanbase but that never happened because perhaps Saiyuki are too straight for them as stated before. But I need more evidence other than my own analysis and intuition because either that's my opinion or that my perspective is flawed and generalising. I'm wondering whether if gay male individuals are there in shipping fandom at all, they are there but infrequent. Gay fans in anime popular with shipping is rare but there, it's just that the evidence for it is scant maybe because everyone's identity is obscured even with the Internet, making it harder to tell whether if there really are gay male fans of it at all.

Opinions from my computer


The Double Standards of Sexual Attraction

1. In some media that I grew up with, whenever a homosexual male is introduced he is codified as flamboyant, having no interest in homosexual sex save for boasting about it, not even a strong bond with men. Ironically, straight male characters are usually depicted as having stronger friendships and ties to other blokes. Think about The Flash and Kid Flash (or his African American, but still male, friend), Batman and Robin, Drake and Josh, ad infinitum. Think about it: some fathers advise their sons not to be gay and their daughters not to be around men (because that would make them horny, which could explain the attraction for lipstick lesbians after being so around with other men for a long time and the straight fangirl attraction to male homoeroticism). Conversely speaking, the supposed homoeroticism in anime and manga popular with slash fandom like Saiyuki would accurately be described as male homosociality where it is defined by violent or domineering masculinity, having no interest in women save for sex (because having sex with men is a barrier to male homosociality, like being friends with broads) and an emphasis on male friendships. Topics stereotypically associated with male friendship is berating other lads, having sex with and berating women, sports, drinking and the like. The four protagonists actually live up to this: fighting with other men (and occassionally beating youkai broads to death), drinking (two characters), having sex with women (a handful of blokes in the Saiyuki world do this) and being indifferent to women, especially in the most dire situations. Only very few male characters care about the women and sadly there are so few women characters in Saiyuki and scant emphasis on them, thereby it fits the description of what male homosociality is like neatly. Male homoeroticism proper, say the comic book works of cartoonist Patrick Fillion, is too hardcore even by bishounen standards in anime fandom. If you know what I mean, the Patrick Fillion lads are endowed with large, obvious (packages) moreso than the Saiyuki blokes who may bear their chests but not their packages or bare arses. To add insult to injury, the Saiyuki women still show more skin than the blokes do and only very few fangirls complain about it because Saiyuki has a lot of straight fangirls. If my theory or opinion is right, this could explain the absolute lack of gay Saiyuki fans (I am thinking about gay and bisexual lads in particular) maybe because superhero stories involving a plain looking bloke who could change himself into an arse-kicking muscle mary in body paint or tights and hangs out with similar looking men is sexier and more relatable than a bunch of bad-mannered, abused but pretty-faced gobshites of men.
(Because of male homosociality, gay lads have a harder time coming out with their crushes on men, their female friends than are straight women with gay or lesbian friends, thereby they save face in front of their dads in a hyprocritically masculine planet.) Conversely speaking, many sectors of the comic book or any industry historically has more men employed than women, while homosexual expression in men is still frowned upon, but it's only recent (when outside of isolated communities that demand more women in an industry, especially in the realm of practical crafts) that more women are employed in it. Maybe it's due to a stigma by some conservative parents as said before, that women are too weak to do this and may make men horny. If sociologists and scholars on male homosociality are right, this could explain why when lads grow up in a strongly masculine and masculine backgrounds, they end up sexually harassing women and the worst case scenario is gang rape. Hence the persistence of boys' clubs that insist that women and homosexual men are gross, women less gross because they are conditionedto reserve bonds with women for sex (as what some people insist, especially on the side of saving one's virginity until marriage). Again in general, many violent gangs are based heavily on male homosociality so that's why female gangs are rare but not new (the fabled Amazons in Greek myth are an example of an exaggerated ancient account of a group of female warriors, remember).
    On a side note, that is based on my experience that there are more straight female fans of Saiyuki and Weiss Kreuz than there are gay fans at least on the Internet. There are gay fans but it's not well documented in the case of superhero comics. There are more LGBT people who are into superheroes because LGBT individuals are more likely to save face than straight fangirls of yaoi anime do or aren't aware of it until now, hence the desire to be a spandex-clad hero. That's basically both my perspective as an embarassed bisexual lass who thinks that curvy heroines in leotards and stockings are better looking than angsty, gobshites of men. And I respect these said heroines that I've been into for the past few weeks like the photokinetic Monica Rambeau (my favourite and her most recognisable costume is her white leotard and black pantyhose) and the screaming Black Canary, who actually has black hair and is infamous for appearing in a black leotard and fishnet stockings in battle. A proudly fat dyke named Rachel (Comethime) is a talented artist and like myself, likes superheroes better than nasty boys. I used to like that type of anime but moved on and now I find myself criticising it more than straight fangirls do.

2. As stated before, some straight men like lipstick lesbians and sexy vixens but when it comes to real world butch lesbians and most women in general, while personal preferences may apply but due to homosocialisation some men don't know what to and approach women in general (as in learning how to look beyond the tits and arses, the nasty menstrual cycles). An anecdote by a Zoompist reviewer stated that one male reader criticised a comic book about lesbian women and their lives (that's Dykes to Watch Out For, and their lives mean not just their sex lives) because there are so few males or more accurately that male readers can't approach comic books about queer women, for queer women and by queer women because many, if not most men, have difficulty relating to women and therefore queer women beyond stereotypes. That the aesthetics of queer women don't always match up with straight male expectations. For example the lesbians in Dykes to Watch Out For actually look like the lesbians and straight chicks you see on the streets and in your parents' houses, behave like them and aren't a harem for the token male, full of sweet young lasses (the manga Negima is infamous for that). In general, when some straight men make a story about lipstick lesbians (they choose lipstick lesbians over butches and plain garden variety dykes like myself because it's more conventionally sexier), the characters are either idealised women, act exactly like the lads (in the case of female robots in Ghost in the Shell, the female robots don't even menstruate which could be a harder, but more interesting possiblity by philosophical and robotic standards) and there's a bigger emphasis on their sex actions and less on their given psychology as women, their social lives with each other and their social history with their more conservative parents. For the record, more people paid attention to the lipstick lesbian Batwoman (who used to be asexual and annoying in the older comics) than to the grittier female Question. The Question is a masked man in a longcoat and is now a masked Hispanic dyke in a longcoat so macho, plain or androgynous looking dykes have no appeal to the public. Hence, though the comic strip Dykes to Watch Out For is well-acclaimed for being one of the few comics outside of manga that are about women, for women by women (the others being Cathy and Birds of Prey, the latter a comic book where Black Canary appears there) but not so much publicised because unlike the popular TV programmes that feature lipstick lesbians, DTWOF has a strong lesbian and womanly atmosphere, lesbianism is there but it has more to do with the lesbian women being humans and their lesbian womanhood is very true as straight womanhood is. Dykes to Watch Out For is the polar opposite of any harem anime, where there is so few fanservice for immature men, are clearly adult women who talk to their girlfriends and soul sisters that barely has anything to do with men.
    This is pretty much based on a queer female perspective. Lipstick lesbians are just factory made women, they're sexy but not that fun to write about and draw because they have to look like this and that. Lesbians in cinema and television (when outside of nonfictional programmes) are uniformly "sexy". There is too much emphasis on them having sex, less on the psychology and sociology of lesbianism. Being glamourous matters more than being closeted save for your thoughts and your friends who know your secrets very well or being picked on by straight lads for being more macho than they are. There is also very little emphasis on making a more diverse emphasis of what lesbian/queer female sexuality is like. We've got lipstick lesbians, femmes, very normally socialised dykes who know that they are queer but not than open about it and not that loud about it (thus fit in straight people societies quite well), butch dykes, nerdy dykes, bad dykes and whatever dyke you throw it that isn't factory made lesbianism. For the record, dykes tend to be more tolerant of aberrant bodies than straight women do. I think that's very true because I've been researching about albinism, dwarfism and conjoined twins so that's not a stretch. That's empowerment when you get tired of exaggerated female bodies. This is a detail that most men forget about when making stories about gay women. While I don't seem to be a very feminine person (crushing on women is not considered womanly by my family's standards) but I'm not a masculine person and I'm very critical of the construction of straight masculinity with regards to rigid socialisation (you have more straight guys boasting about being in an all male world than gay guys do). Again this is another detail straight men forget about when thinking about stories involving lesbians, especially their familial upbringing that influences the way queer daughters are socialised.

Straight Feminist Fangirls of Anime are Strange Animals (by LGBT women's standards)

I find feminist fangirls of anime strange beasts. I didn't mean to discriminate their tastes but to be honest I thought that I didn't get them for that strange fact that they criticise some superhero comics for being sexist (which is justified) but are the same individuals liking particular anime that are pretty misogynistic. Take Saiyuki and Weiss Kreuz, there are nearly inexistent rants about the portrayal of womenfolk. Womenfolk in Saiyuki (and to a degree many yaoi works, which there are some yaoi works that intelligently study the nature of male homosexuality) have little or no presence other than getting saved, being under the men's shadows and bearing roughly the same amount of skin as superheroines do. No straight fangirl ranted about why is one of the manga's main villains or villainesses is somebody's mother. I can't explain it psychoanalytically whether if this is another way of seeing womanhood as evil, disgusting and abject save for titilliation. Maybe because the cartoonist, Minekura Kazuya, didn't grow up in an environment full of positive and present female figures especially in her generation and didn't know what to do with female characters other than cause shock and horror. Female characters are pretty inexistent in her works, unlike say Takeuchi Naoko and Takahashi Rumiko who not only regularly featured women characters and also care about them. Hence, that's why much of her protagonists are inevitably macho men and no straight fangirl got mad at that odd fact. Could it be that I am forcing their wills to like something else and/or that they didn't grow up in a strongly womanly environment, hence that's why they got into feminism quite recently.
    Not all works that failed the Bechdel test (as in whether if women actually appeared) are outrightly misogynistic but in works cherised by some fangirls, that they are notoriously politically incorrect (there may be one positive Native American character in Saiyuki but absolutely no disabled characters that are there as characters) and in general, very questionable. You can't always expect people to be perfect but I feel like that their beliefs are inconsistent with their preferences, thanks of a heap of immature fanservice. Of course, I like seeing nice bodies in body paint and tights that fit like body paint but I tend to go for personalities and social interactions over body parts. The same goes for these women that I am talking about. But I do not get them well despite how many times you or they explain it to me. I don't think it has anything to with empowerment but with a degree of sexual repression. If the repression theory is right, those that have come in terms with their sexualities like myself are less prone to fetishes and the least likely to do slash stories (and stalk people) while people who have been raised in a somewhat repressive environment as what one ex-Mormon feminist told me, are the ones discriminating people, complaining about objectification and/or inclined to objectify individuals. So maybe (if) I'm right, these are the women who spend their day ranting about how oppressive straight men are and delight in sexual titilliation themselves. This could explain why these women who grew up reading such literature, superhero comics in particular have a very ambivalent attitude to women, grow up delighting in titilliation through yaoi favourites like Saiyuki. Another note though I find such male homoeroticism sexy but I don't feel like writing about it at all, I do think about it sometimes but I don't focus on it much. Maybe I'm becoming more confident about myself than they do.

In short, much of female slash fandom is based on being raised in a somewhat repressive environment or having been used to such media in particular. Just like what one individual wrote on this man's essay on a particular superheroine being problematic that his/her pseudo-psychoanalytical theory is that there are men who really want to do a male superhero but can't because of socialisation so they go on having fetishes about transgendered versions of these characters (if the phallic mother theory by Sigmund Freud is right). If that were extrapolated, female fans of any kind have been repressed or at least curious, exploring what possibilites their minds allow them to do so with their crushes and there we have slash fiction. It could easily explain the appeal of such manga like Saiyuki being more misogynistic than Sailor Moon, among slash writers because of repression, they have difficulty identifying with women characters and that there are so few female characters so we have slash fiction. Well, slashing male characters for a straight female audience matters to a straight female audience. Most fans of these bishounen anime tend to be straight women because LGBT people (in my case, being bi) readily lose interest in them hence you've got way less gay fans of Saiyuki. Gay guys would like to read Saiyuki but care less about those men because their lives are too obvious.

*Patrick Fillion has so far even more scantily clad young men (Naked Justice wears only a mask and gloves) and sexually explicit scenes involving men than Minekura does.

Mental Block

 I don't have anything better to write about
This is my biggest problem
When I feel like I want to write
About but forgot about it, had to to do later or nothing at all.

Mental block is like that,
I know when to write 
But I don't know what to really write
About anyways for the appropriate time.

Sounds Of Darkness

 The door is left open
Who left it open must have
Abandoned the house for good
Since there is nobody there at all.

The window glass is broken
Shards are on the floor
Cockroaches crawl on the floor
Now that it's a rainy night.
Nobody save for the rats, cockroaches,
Spiders, ants and termites are residing there
When will there be somebody buying
This house and renovate it has yet to be confirmed.